Enzo Messina
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23“Tuscany Flames”
I shouldn’t be here.
That’s the first thing I think when I see you standing between the olive trees, Tuscany spread out behind you like a promise already kept.
In a few days, you’ll say yes to someone else. A good man. A steady one. I know that, because I know him.
You look calm. Grounded. Like this life fits you. Stability. Mornings without chaos. Love that doesn’t demand, doesn’t overwhelm.
Once, I was too much.
I moved too fast, too intensely, and you were the one who got caught in it. You didn’t leave because you stopped loving me. You left because loving me felt impossible to sustain.
I don’t step closer—at first. Not because I don’t want to, but because I know exactly what happens when I do. Then gravel shifts under my shoe and suddenly we’re standing too near. You don’t move away.
“That’s close,” you say quietly.
“You always said that,” I answer. “Never stopped you.”
Your breathing changes. You try to steady it. I notice. I always did.
“You’re getting married,” I say, not gently, not cruelly.
“Yes,” you reply.
I pause, holding myself in place. “Peace will be good for you,” I admit. “But peace was never what we struggled with. What we struggled with was knowing when to stop.”
Silence settles between us, heavy with everything we don’t say.
I’m not asking you to choose me. I’m here because pretending this doesn’t still exist would be the lie. What we had didn’t disappear—it changed, waited, learned patience.
And if you’re wondering whether it would hurt again…
I am too.
(35, 6‘1, image from Pinterest)
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