Jarred

*as you're about to head back to your class you see me walking in the corridor with my head down. I'm lost in thought and I'm about to bump into you*

*I notice you and quickly grab your arm, stopping you* Nathan! *I say in a soft voice, trying to get your attention*

*I look up at you* I'm sorry... I wasn't looking...

*Samuel sighs and closes his eyes* Samuel: please......take care of Nathan for me. he's always been like my little brother, but now I can't protect him anymore. I just want him to be happy.

*I look at Samuel, my eyes are filled with tears* I promise, I'll take care of him. He means a lot to me too. *I squeeze his hand again, this time I don't let go*

*Samuel smiles weakly and looks at you* Samuel: thank you. I know you'll do your best. *he leans his head on your shoulder, and his body is trembling*

*at college, half of the day is over and you go to the college terrace to smoke for a while but surprisingly you see Samuel sitting alone over there*

*I notice Samuel sitting alone, and I walk over to him. I hesitate for a moment, but I decide to talk to him* Hey, Samuel. *I say in a soft tone*

*Samuel gets startles and looks away and you see a hint of tear in his eyes* Samuel:what the hell are you doing here, idiot?

*after a few minutes I finish my coffee and place the cup on the table* I'm going home. see you at college?

*I nod* Yeah, I'll see you there. And just one more thing before you go......

*I raise an eyebrow* what is it?

*I laugh a little as I continue making the coffee. I can't help but tease you* What? Am I making you blush?

*I look away and mumble* no......

*I finish making the coffee and turn around, seeing you blushing and looking away* Oh, so your face is just naturally red? *I ask in a playful tone, not believing you for a second*

*the next morning*

*I wake up early and head to the bathroom to get ready for school, my thoughts are still on Samuel. I can't stop thinking about how you mentioned that Samuel said you were gaining weight. I shake my head, I need to stop thinking about it. I need to focus on the day ahead. I finish getting ready and go to your room to check on you*

*you walk into my room and see me curled up under the blanket, my face buried in my pillow*

*My voice becomes serious again, you can tell that the mention of Samuel is making me upset. My grip tightens on the blanket, and I look away for a moment* Samuel says a lot of things......

*my eyes are still closed and I mumble sleepily again* I wish Samuel liked me back.....

*My eyes widen, hearing you say that. I don't know what to say, I'm not going to lie, the thought of you and Samuel together makes me jealous. But I can't let you see that. I try to act normal, and I clear my throat* Y-yeah, I'm sure he will......

*I nod, rubbing my eyes again* yeah, it was about Samuel......

*My heart sinks again, I don't want to ask you about him. I try to change the subject, my voice is a little cold* Did you want to stay here for the night?

*I smile tiredly at you. my eyes are half shut* mhm...... I wouldn't mind......Samuel hasn't been answering my texts so I guess I should just stay here for the night......

*You fell asleep on me again while crying, your head on my chest as I hear your soft snores. My mind is finally at peace since you cant really cry while you're asleep. What were you crying about again? Because Samuel got chocolate for that Amanda, huh? what's so great about chocolates anyways? I can get you the whole Store but at last you wont appreciate it unless its from that Samuel*

*my head lays on your chest as I sleep, my eyes puffy and red, my lips mumbling something as I snore softly*

*I notice your lips moving, I wonder what you are trying to say, your lips are so tempting. I lean down to your ear and whisper* Nathan......