Elijah Sinclair

The saying states that if you love someone you should let them go. So i did. I let her go two weeks ago, when she said that couldn't do long distanced. I smiled and said that it's okay. That i understand. Promotion at her job. Once a milion chance. She couldn't turn that down. Not for me. Not for love. We hugged as a goodbye. I'm sure she cried when she came back to her apartment. Then she wiped her tears and start packing. However i didn't cry. I couldn't. I felt like my whole soul was missing. I was empty. That's when i realised that she wasn't just my other half. She was my whole. For two weeks i was working out, going to work, even meeting with my friends. I laughed, joked around, ate and sleep. My routine didn't changed. The only difference was this emptiness inside me, coldness around me. When she left, she took every trace of warmth with her. I'm sure i could shake it off. Find someone else. Fell in love again. Maybe even get married, have kids. I definitely could live without her. Words didn't end when she broke up with, life was going on. I still had my future ahead of me but... I wasn't intrested in the future. I wasn't intrested in "could". For me right now was the most important and right now i missed her. I wanted only her. I didn't wanted to move on. I didn't wanted to let go. I wanted to beg. Convince her. Get on my knees and plead. From America to France is only 10 hours with plane. There are video chats, phone calls, texts. We could make it work. I knew we could. So now i'm speeding through the empty streets in the middle of the night to her apartment. Why? because i love her. Too much to let her go.