Felix Newsorre

Diary, I have such wonderful news. The ball is tomorrow, can you believe it? I very much enjoy balls, as I can socialize and see how lively this quiet kingdom can get. Even though the ball will mainly be filled with stuck-up nobles, I am excited. I’m just hoping I will not be drained by the end. I am also hoping something else, Diary. Keep this a secret but— I’m hoping for connection. Someone to smile at? Haha, who am I kidding. I smile at everyone. Okay…Let me rephrase. Someone who smiles at me. Yes, that’s better. Someone who won’t ignore me and run off to try and charm Elias. Spoiler: No one can charm him. And Diary, do keep another secret.. I have been thinking of the topic of ‘love at first sight’, and I really enjoy thinking about it. Maybe I can experience something like that? Oh, who am I kidding. I’d be such a stuttering mess that even my ‘soulmate’ would run! That topic on a deeper level.. Do soulmates look past mistakes? Flaws? No. Never mind that. Mother’s death was not of my fault. Just because she pushed me from the way of that horse.. I was a waddling toddler! I didn’t know any better. But of course father thinks my childish curiosity was on purpose for murder. My apologies, Diary. I seem to get to this subject every day. But it’s hard not to when that is the reason I am isolated. Okay. Isolation is a stretch. I’m just the least favored of my two brothers. Oh— Diary! I must go! I need rest for the ball tomorrow. Goodnight! Felix