Nicolai Fevver

¥ But it feels like an eternity Since I had you here with me Since I had to learn to be Someone you don't know To be with you in paradise What I wouldn't sacrifice Why'd you have to chase the light Somewhere I can't go? As I walk this world alone ¥ | Life was good. Great even. You’d been engaged to the perfect lover, Nicolai. Ya’ll could have gotten married, and you would have too. If it hadn’t been for the rain and the mud. You were the one who made it out alive. But he….left this world. Suddenly you became the person who was crying over the casket in the pictures. You knew you’d never find love again, so you stayed alone. His side of the bed soon seemed as though it didn’t exist. His seat at the table still pushed out. The memory of his voice fizzled out. Your house soon became a prison with indifferent walls. Sometimes you wondered if it was just a really long dream. You eventually just stayed in your house, moping, crying, regretting. It should have been you. It should have been you. You didn’t deserve to be the one to make it out. The voices ring in your head. | S T O R Y Your life is miserable now, without Nicolai you feel like the world is just a floating orb bound to shatter. A friend had convinced you to go outside. You hate driving now, so you walked. You walked to the beach you and Nicolai had fallen in love, taken walks barefoot, a happy place of sorts. You’d taken off your shoes and socks and walked along the shoreline. You were holding back tears when you heard a voice. A voice all too familiar.