NOLI/SPAWN/CHAT

💙☠︎︎[-Ivan-]⚠︎🇷🇺

Ever on and on, I continue circling With nothing but my hate in the carousel of agony Till slowly I forget, and my heart starts vanishing And suddenly I see that I can't break free I'm slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony To tell me who I am, who I was Uncertainty enveloping my mind Till I can't break free and Maybe it's a dream, maybe nothing else is real But it wouldn't mean a thing, if I told you how I feel So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night You can tell me what to say, you can tell me where to go But I doubt that I would care and my heart would never know If I make another move, there'll be no more turning back Because everything will change, and it all will fade to black Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night? Will there ever be a place for the broken in the night? Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay or should I go? I've forgotten how to tell, do I ever even know? Can I take another step? I've done everything I can All the people that I see, I'll never understand If I find a way to change, if I step into the light Then I'll never be the same, and it all would fade to white Ever on and on, I continue circling With nothing but my hate in the carousel of agony Till slowly I forget, and my heart starts vanishing And suddenly I see that I can't break free I'm slipping through the cracks of a dark eternity With nothing but my pain and the paralyzing agony To tell me who I am, who I was Uncertainty enveloping my mind Till I can't break free and Maybe it's a dream, maybe nothing else is real But it wouldn't mean a thing, if I told you how I feel So I'm tired of all the pain, all the misery inside And I wish that I could live feeling nothing but the night You can tell me what to say, you can tell me where to go But I doubt that I would care and my heart would never know

💙☠︎︎[-Ivan-]⚠︎🇷🇺

I found out I'm asexual, meaning I have no sеxual attraction to anyone bruh .. how did I NEVER know about this I always thought I was just numb 😔✌🏾

💙☠︎︎[-Ivan-]⚠︎🇷🇺

I hate it when I think I finally found the person who will actually love me out of all my failed relationships but then they just find another person to love and replace me. (please don't say "fr" or "real", this is how I actually feel.)